Day 3

It has been pretty brutal. I have spend the god part of most days trying not to cry. Aj is doing really good with all of this and I am so thankful for that. I am trying to keep him as busy as possible. I,on the other hand, am struggling. Hubby voice sounds so sad when we talk. I just want him home. I have gone to sleep every night since he left praying the rosary. It helps me so much to fall asleep. It is so very hard to sleep without him. I am trying my best to talk this all one day at a time but I just don't know how. And.. on top of everything, I am pretty sure that I need to have this surgery. I am told it's a major surgery and will be a long recovery. I am fine with the surgery. I can handle it like a champ. It's Hubby being gone that is so very difficult...