Saturday, November 15, 2008

Day 7

Not much has changed from Day 3, except that I am now sick. I am still trying to deal with Hubby being gone and it SUCKS! I don't even have the motivation to write..

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Day 3

It has been pretty brutal. I have spend the god part of most days trying not to cry. Aj is doing really good with all of this and I am so thankful for that. I am trying to keep him as busy as possible. I,on the other hand, am struggling. Hubby voice sounds so sad when we talk. I just want him home. I have gone to sleep every night since he left praying the rosary. It helps me so much to fall asleep. It is so very hard to sleep without him. I am trying my best to talk this all one day at a time but I just don't know how. And.. on top of everything, I am pretty sure that I need to have this surgery. I am told it's a major surgery and will be a long recovery. I am fine with the surgery. I can handle it like a champ. It's Hubby being gone that is so very difficult...

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Day One?

I am not sure if I can say this is the first day away from Hubby because I saw him this morning. We dropped him off for the start of a long road! I have just wanted to sleep all day long. There are moments where I am just fighting back tears and other moments when I can not stop crying. That has been my entire day. I have no idea how to get through 16 months of this...

Friday, November 7, 2008

Tell him to go away!!

I literally take my Hubby in less than 24 hours. I literally have a reporter in my house right now. This man is taking up an hour of what little time I have left with Hubby. This week has sucked. I am not happy at all. On top of everything with Hubby, I think that I do need surgery and meet with the surgeon on Monday. His nurse said I couldn't wait until the 20th. It had to be Monday. Day 1 of being away from Hubby and I meet with a doctor who will be cutting my open. Could things get better, please? Can this man pleeeease leave my house so that I can have my Hubby back? He must not know that I am counting the hours and it's not fair that he gets one of them!